Post by shortydo on May 29, 2008 13:43:27 GMT -5
Good afternoon Ladies i would like to share my story with u all. looking for some positive or negative feed back .
I have a few things on my mind that i need to get off but i wanted to ask for your input please.
my story begins in NJ where i was born and raised. a mother of 3 beautiful daughters. Was married to a very abusive man for 15 years. one day i decided to jump out on faith and leave my ex and that ment leaving my girl behind also. i moved to MN where i've lived for the last 4 year, met a wonderful black man and we got married July of 07.
My DH has two kids of his own by two different women. Since i've come into the picture things have went down hill as far as him being able to see or talk to his children. Both moms reside in the state of MN. well his daughter mom moved to FL well before i met my DH. her reasons were to get away from him. my DH and i met a year after she left MN. As soon as she heard about my DH involved with another woman she rush back to the state of MN. i assume hoping they would rekindle their on again off again relationship. I can't go into to details. all i know she cheated he took her back, he cheated she dealt with it. well their daughter is now 6. i met her on a few occasions or should i say when mom felt like allowing her to visit. the first year was pretty rough for us (my DH and i) one dealt with the lost of his mom, his daughter was now back in the state of MN but i was like she was still gone due to all the bs. when BM found out that we were tying the knot she sent their child off to live with family in FL but BM stayed back, she even went as far as sleeping with my DH dad after my DH mom passed (trifling) it's like she'll do anything to hurth this man! as i explained before his child is now 6 she just decided to file Cs against him telling the judge that i make him hate his child. the reason he doesn't show up for court is because i throw his mail in the trash, i mean during there court session all she did was talk about me (what about what the kid needs).( i should be the least of her worries)) and i was at work going on with my day. this whole situation has put a strain on my heart b/c over the years i felt guilt about him not seeing his kids. he even slip up once and said that i don't like his daughter (he was jobless, hopeless and mom just past a week proir to that statement so i left it alone b/c i knew his mind was all over. well that statement has stay with me and i can't shake it off. i reason with myself all the time about my feelings towards the situation and i get angry. occasionally i find myself jealous of the ex and child b/c i wish i could give him a child. i tied my tubes after my 3rd daughter but i know by bringing another child into this world wouldn't resolve a thing. is it wrong for me to feel this way. his daughter will be here on sun for summer break and off to fl. i don't want to feel any anomosity toward his child b/c i already know she is the one suffering the most especailly living in another state AWAY from parents. but at times it's hard for me to extend my love to her is b/c when she calls all she does is talk about the mom and how she only wants her mom and dad @ her B-day party and why can't he leave me and get back with BM. i know she is a child following her mom dialog. im worried the BM will start some funny business and basically im tired please help!!!
I have a few things on my mind that i need to get off but i wanted to ask for your input please.
my story begins in NJ where i was born and raised. a mother of 3 beautiful daughters. Was married to a very abusive man for 15 years. one day i decided to jump out on faith and leave my ex and that ment leaving my girl behind also. i moved to MN where i've lived for the last 4 year, met a wonderful black man and we got married July of 07.
My DH has two kids of his own by two different women. Since i've come into the picture things have went down hill as far as him being able to see or talk to his children. Both moms reside in the state of MN. well his daughter mom moved to FL well before i met my DH. her reasons were to get away from him. my DH and i met a year after she left MN. As soon as she heard about my DH involved with another woman she rush back to the state of MN. i assume hoping they would rekindle their on again off again relationship. I can't go into to details. all i know she cheated he took her back, he cheated she dealt with it. well their daughter is now 6. i met her on a few occasions or should i say when mom felt like allowing her to visit. the first year was pretty rough for us (my DH and i) one dealt with the lost of his mom, his daughter was now back in the state of MN but i was like she was still gone due to all the bs. when BM found out that we were tying the knot she sent their child off to live with family in FL but BM stayed back, she even went as far as sleeping with my DH dad after my DH mom passed (trifling) it's like she'll do anything to hurth this man! as i explained before his child is now 6 she just decided to file Cs against him telling the judge that i make him hate his child. the reason he doesn't show up for court is because i throw his mail in the trash, i mean during there court session all she did was talk about me (what about what the kid needs).( i should be the least of her worries)) and i was at work going on with my day. this whole situation has put a strain on my heart b/c over the years i felt guilt about him not seeing his kids. he even slip up once and said that i don't like his daughter (he was jobless, hopeless and mom just past a week proir to that statement so i left it alone b/c i knew his mind was all over. well that statement has stay with me and i can't shake it off. i reason with myself all the time about my feelings towards the situation and i get angry. occasionally i find myself jealous of the ex and child b/c i wish i could give him a child. i tied my tubes after my 3rd daughter but i know by bringing another child into this world wouldn't resolve a thing. is it wrong for me to feel this way. his daughter will be here on sun for summer break and off to fl. i don't want to feel any anomosity toward his child b/c i already know she is the one suffering the most especailly living in another state AWAY from parents. but at times it's hard for me to extend my love to her is b/c when she calls all she does is talk about the mom and how she only wants her mom and dad @ her B-day party and why can't he leave me and get back with BM. i know she is a child following her mom dialog. im worried the BM will start some funny business and basically im tired please help!!!
